Sunday, December 21, 2003
I don't want to sex you.
True story.
haha riiiiiight.
Anyways.
Today I got paid $25.
cool.
I spent pretty much all of it on my friends for xmas. How sweet of me.
But I went up my grams, because I haven't seen my family in years.
I found 7 bucks in the yard! go me! score! woo
Alll day I've been listening to
Something Corporate- Konstatine.
good song. <3333
I missed the show last night. sadly no one wanted to go with me.
So I sat at Jamie's and we ordered food.
I came home and sat here.
Me n Dah made up. I love her. and I am happy.
Ashley is going to school tomorrow. So i'm guessing she is feeling better. yes. no one jinx her now, because she needs to come over, so inorder to do that, she must go to school!
tomorrow i'm probably not going to school.
make that tuesday too. hehe
I think i'm going to the mall tomorrow. yes.
wendesday i wanna get smashed.
cool.
i probably will.
nothing like waking up on xmas with a hangover. my family will be proud.
well i'm going.
rock.
me.
Posted at 04:10 pm by Patti
Wednesday, December 17, 2003
I never say I'm always right.
What the fuck is going on in my life?
This day was horrible, and is only getting worse.
No, it's not a surprise, but I have no idea why my days are like this.
They have no reason to be. I don't deserve to be living like this.
I can't wait til I'm old enough to move. AWAY. Far away from this place, and these people.
Move away, just to start all over again. Try to make things better.
-7:00 AM
My parents were awake. My dad was getting ready to take me to school.
ok. It's 7:00 in the morning.
I didn't get home til 1:00 AM, yellowcard was awesome by the way.
But no one is really up at 7:00 AM. Especially me, I'm in a bad mood, because I have to go to gay school.
But that doesn't stop anyone. Jesus. They fucking start fighting. What the fuck? No one wants to hear this in the fucking early dawn. And I don't want to go to school, with the bad thoughts of what might be happening at my house.
No.
But they kept going.
Fuck. everyone.
I never thought I'd be using Fuck so many times in my life. I must of used it at least 20 times this morning. Because my family is stupid.
"Get a divorce, much easier." That's what I told my dad. If they don't soon, I'm moving in with my gram. I need to get away from this shit.
Now, school was alright. But the people asking me why I have tears in my eyes, isn't what I liked to be asked 489574 times a day.
Just leave me alone, you never care when I'm upset. But just because you fucking see Tears in my eyes you fucking ask. you whore. fake.
So I call Dah Dah today, since I have no one else to talk to.
No one listens to me like she does.
Plus she said she 'needed her friends right now' in her blogdrive.
So I was like 'well, then we can share our problems like we normally do.'
Well what a fucking bad idea.
She was in a bad mood, I could just tell in her voice.
Pissed off,and she won't tell me why.
SHE TELLS ME EVERYTHING. That's why I am here, to care, to make sure everything is running smoothly in her life. In all my friends life.
I'm not here to worry about my life. No.
I would never do such a thing. Because I always try to make other peoples lives happy. Not mine.
I don't go out and try to find myself a boyfriend, or fix a relationship for me.
I worry about my best friends instead.
But you know what, no one ever does any of that stuff for me.
I swear I am just being used..
By everyone that looks at me.
It's like that one look that they give me, and off I go, to fix all their problems, and make sure they are all content.
Fuck Brittni.
Who cares. Not like her life is bad or anything.
Fuck that shit. Fuck Fuck Fuck.
All I fucking do is cry. These pills are worth shit anymore. No one in the world should be feeling like this now. It's ashame that I must. But no one realizes how I feel. Because no one asks. I always have to explain myself to people. Meanwhile I know everything about everyone. I know when someone is upset. They will come up to me, and I'll talk to them about it, try to make everything seem like it's going to ok.
Why can't someone like that walk up to me?
Why can't for once in my life, why can't I be happy?
Have money in my pocket to call my own.
Fucking just hold hands with a boy, for fun. Or ever get a kiss goodnight.
Why doesn't anyone seem to care anymore?
And why does it seem that I have no friends, but myself?
I am my only friend. Posted at 01:12 pm by Patti
Sunday, December 14, 2003
so i haven't updated in a while..
let's see.
today is sunday..
me n dah slept til 12 and mike came over, and we played in the snow. but i came in cuz it was no fun, and i took a shower.
Then we ate.
And now they are watching Nightmare Before Christmas with my sisters..
umm.
i have to work tomorrow..
yellowcard is tuesday, i cant wait.
i need to talk to ashley.
me n nick need to hangout sometime.
i hope everyone had fun at their dances..
yeah, it's snowing again, and i don't like it too much.
im going bye
Posted at 03:02 pm by Patti
Saturday, December 06, 2003
damn right it's better than yours.
Hi.
I needed to update, so here I am.
I'm gonna start off from Dah Dah's bday, which was December 3.
Me, Ashley, Mike, and Zues went to the mall to get Dah her presents..
After that we went and got dah dah, ate at Wendy's..
Then Me and Ashley left with Donald because I had to drop off Anthony's food at Walmart.
So we went there, and talked for a few.
Then took Ashley home, and yeah.
The next day..
Me, Dah, Mike, and Zues went to Walmart to drop off Dah's film.
Went to McDonald's because Zues wanted a McFag. hah
Took a ride on Patton Road. heh.
Then went home.
Last night..
It snowed.
I spent a few hours on this computer singing rap songs to Bill and Nick.
They found it humerous.
Bill won the hip hop contest, but the only reason he did was because he was singing old rap songs, and I was singing new ones.
Then I went up to the Church with Bree n Holly.. and a bunch of cool people were up there, and we just fooled around. it was pretty fun.
Well I need to go to my hair dresser so she can tell me which color to dye my hair.
later
Posted at 08:44 am by Patti
Tuesday, December 02, 2003
Today was gay.
I hate school, and it only got worse when I came home..
Mike wanted to go the the mall today, we were going to go without Zues, and i was pretty happy with that, because we would of had a safe car ride down to the mall.
Well Mike was running late, too much whacking off in the shower, by the time he wanted to leave, the bank was closed.
So we must go tomorrow, which is cool.
I talked to my friend Bill today, for quite a long time. It was good. He explained some things to me, and we just talked about everything. He really helped me out.
thanks Bill. much <3.
Talked to dah today too, on the phone.
TOMORROW IS HER BIRTHDAY.....
WOOOOOO. dah's a beast.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAH....well tomorrow. yeah.
okay, so.
Tomorrow I have to give my gay speech on abortion. it's like 3 minutes and 40 seconds long, but that's not long enough. well suck a big dick.
umm.. yeah so anyways.
i still haven't talked to flex in days, it's killing me
i miss that kid. i don't know what's going on.
hmm
well i'm going to watch some xmas cartoons.
those are cool
bye bye.
oh yeah, i just want to say Hello to Ashley, because she is my friend and I love her.
Also a big shoutout to Chelsey, Renette, and C-unit. much love girls.
and remember. fuck in the ass hard. Posted at 05:42 pm by Patti
Monday, December 01, 2003
This is going to be a stupid entry... yeah.
Why do people say "i'm a beast"
A beast. To me it's something HUGE and hairy, and ugly. It's like putting yourself down when you say that. haha
I don't know, but that was on my mind.
and. flex is ignoring my calls or something, i've been trying to call him and he's just not home, or not answering. ah. it's driving me nuts.
hmmm.
gay
gay
gay
school is tomorrow.
gay
gay
gay
people at school are beasts.
haaaa laterrrrrr Posted at 05:59 pm by Patti
Sunday, November 30, 2003
Okay, I haven't updated in a long time. let's go!
Friday
:Ashley and Chelsey came over since we didn't have school, we ordered Vechilli Pizza, and then got ready for the show..
::Went to the show, and stood outside for awhile, in the cold. gay. but yeah i sold all my tickets, just for Nick..
:::show, yeah it was pretty cool. Me and Ashley went outside numerous times, because we are cool like that. and i met a very cool kid named Ryan! he's my new buddy. I saw all my friends that i love and even met some new ones, so cool.
::::Donald took me, chels, jamie, and ash home. Ashley came to my house so yeah. Then me n ash just kinda went to bed, cuz we were tired.
Saturday
-Me n Ash went down to St. Vincent De Paul's. got some stuff. cool.
--Sat around my house, then around 7 we went to Chelseys.
---Me, Ash, Renette,Chels,Cayla, n Jake. chilled. did our thang. had fun. Dannielle left though cuz she was sick, feel better mentor!.
----Watched movies, drank, ate, danced (everyone loves my dancing skills), sat around like cool kids, next thing you know we were out. sleep.
Sunday
/Woke up, watched 8 Crazy Nights, ate, then my mom came and got me n ash.
/Kevin was on his way to come get Ashley, so Ash just told me to come home with her.. so i packed real quick and we were on our way!
///We chilled around with Alan and Jeremy, farted, all that cool stuff, then Donald came over and we chilled some more, and watched a movie.
////Around 10 we all left, and me and donald went to eat n park.. saw dippy, frank, steven, and JR.. talked to them for a few minutes.
/////Then we went and visited chuck because i love him, he makes me smile! much love buddy!
So right now, i'm home, talking to mark, listening to him play his guitar, which he plays really good.. umm.. i'm also listening to dashboard, so i'm calm and sad. ya. well i'm going, later kids.
Posted at 09:38 pm by Patti
Thursday, November 27, 2003
Today was Thangsgiving.
Me, my family, and my grandparents all ate together.
I think I ate the most. i love food. haha
Not so much turkey though, more of the stuffing.
Then I went upstairs and hid in my room, to get away.
But now i'm here.
Linzi and my mother went to my other grandmas house..
And of course my dad left, prolly to go to his girlfriends house. hmm..
Kayli and Gab are upstairs maybe a bunch of noise, and i am about to go beat them.
But anyways, I'm sitting here listening to Thursday..
Talking to Brittany, being bored, and waiting for my other friends to get online.
I have been all day, and they are no where to be found!
Well I talked to Ashley and she is at her cousins with Jeremy,
But i don't know where Mike, or Flex, or anyone else is!
oh...dah went to her dads. lets wish her luck..
Today, before i ate, i layed in my bed, from like 9am-330pm.
All that time, i pretty much talked to Flex on the phone, and played nintendo.
It's weird, cuz me and flex can talk on the phone for hours, and we get off, and then call each other back in like a hour. haha
We talk too much.
Jamie called me a bit ago, she didn't really want anything.
I just asked her if she ate alot of turkey, she said no.
let me recap last night.
mike and zues came to get me,
then we went and got dah.
Traveled on to Walmart to see Brittany n Jamie.
Went inside, and wandered around.
Left to get some wings.
I beat up zues while we were waiting. im gonna fucking kill him one day.
We went to dahs n ate.
Then we went to nicks to get tickets for tomorrows show.
Drove and took me home.
I got "i love you" from Mike n Dah.
and then i went to bed around 1230. that was a gay night.
But I'm sure Friday, Saturday, Sunday, and Monday will be wonderful.
Let's hope.
Much love.
-Brittni
Posted at 04:11 pm by Patti
Monday, November 24, 2003
I had lots of homework today, and it sucked
I still have to study for two tests, fuck it. im not, i need my computer time. haha
Anyways.
me n donald are going to have a contest.
its going to be at my house, whoever can eat the most buns.
he thinks he can take me,
yeah right. BRING IT DONALD.
hahahaa
I miss West Newton.
Another words- Ashleys house.
its so peaceful there, well without her brothers.
and everyone is so nice there
and its fun
cuz everyone lives so close, and you can go visit them.
at my house, you have to go on the other side of town to get to one of my friends. it sucks
lets move to west newton.
woo. that would be cool.
yessssssssss.
well im going to finish talking to donald about these buns. later.
flex-call me
Posted at 05:48 pm by Patti
Sunday, November 23, 2003
Okay. Update.
Friday-
I didn't go to school, so I went with my mom to Walmart.
-Visited Donald.
Then we went to FashionBug.
-Bought a few things.
Came home, blah blah blah.
Got ready for the show that night. Yeah, it was a really good show.
Summer Aura, woooo.
McDonalds, hung out with my friends there. fun.
Ashley slept over, we ate, and all that good stuff.
Sleep.
Saturday-
Me and Ash woke up,
ate once again.
Around 3, Shel came to get us.
Went to Ashleys..
Firehall.
hung out with Jeremy n Alan, taped them doing music videos.
Shane n Flex came to visit.
cool.
Then we went to sleep later on.
Sunday-
Me n Ash woke up around 12:30 (the latest we ever woken up)
Of course we ate again, then watched a cowboy movie, it was so sad.
I called my dad, to come get me.
but he didn't.
So flex was going to come get me, but something occured.
My mom came to get me.
Ashley n her mom went to Nathen's banquet, that Nate didn't even go to. So yeah, more food for Ashley. haha
Mike, Zues, n Dah came over.
Mike pierced my dads ear, now he's gangster.
Mike's getting his nipple pierced tomorrow, hopefully i'm going with him, i wanna see.
They left just a bit ago. So now i'm just sitting here.
So now tomorrow is gay school.
I am so far behind since i missed two days last week.
Oh well, hopefully it won't be too bad.
Posted at 05:38 pm by Patti
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Let's go, cause soon we're gonna rock out on the stereo.
So*scream*and*run.
Do all those things that make people look at you, that way.
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